I am estranged from my family by choice

Estrangement from one's family, particularly by choice, is a process fraught with anguish, inner turmoil, and conflicting emotions. For many of us, the longing for familial love and connection runs deep, woven into the fabric of our being. Yet, the reality often diverges sharply from this idealised image, often revealing a landscape tainted by disappointment, control, neglect, or even trauma. It's a harsh and deeply painful awakening when we realise that our families are not the picture-perfect portrayals we see on screens; it's a blow to the very core of our being.

Growing up in such environments, where family ties are deeply respected, everyone values being together, and collective harmony is priced above all, the decision to distance oneself from family members is a heavy burden to bear. The weight of cultural expectations, societal norms, and religious teachings presses down upon us, intensifying the pain of our choice. In collectivist cultures or among children of immigrants, this pain cuts even deeper, as the very fabric of our identity is intertwined with our familial ties.

Setting boundaries within these complex familial relationships becomes not just a necessity but a lifeline for our emotional well-being. Yet, it's a path fraught with guilt, regret, and self-doubt. We grapple with the fear of disappointing our families, of shattering the carefully constructed façade of unity and harmony. The very act of asserting our boundaries feels like a betrayal of everything we've been taught to hold dear.

And then there are the emotional challenges that accompany this journey – the waves of guilt, shame, and envy that threaten to engulf us. We question our choices, second-guessing ourselves at every turn. Are we doing the right thing? Are we selfish for putting our own needs first? The societal pressure to maintain familial bonds, no matter the cost, weighs heavily upon us, adding another layer of anguish to our already burdened hearts.

But amidst the pain and turmoil, there is hope. Hope that by asserting our boundaries, by reclaiming control over our lives, we can find healing and renewal. It's a messy, painful process, to be sure. There will be tears, moments of doubt, and sleepless nights spent wrestling with our demons. But it's also a journey of self-discovery, of reclaiming our agency and rewriting the narrative of our lives.

So, to all those who find themselves estranged from their families, know that you are not alone. Your pain is valid, your struggle is real, but so too is your strength. By setting boundaries, by daring to assert your own needs and desires, you are taking a bold step towards recovery, healing and wholeness. It won't be easy, and the road ahead may be long and arduous. But remember, my dear child of immigrants, that you are worthy of love, freedom, respect, and happiness – both from others and from yourself.

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